It's been a long time since I wrote a journal entry here, and since I submitted a deviation today I feel like it's time.

My last entry talked about how my life was just at the right place. I had an almost perfect GPA, my family and my friends were amazing at the time, and I was in a relationship that was just insanely good. I was blessed with things I didn't ask for, and in the back of my mind I knew it would be gone.

Fast forward to now. I hate this year. It's been the worst year. I've lost a couple friends, I've hurt people and I didn't mean to. My relationship fizzled and we agreed to be friends, but to this day we don't speak. I got into a car accident, I got food poisoned. I lost my grandma.... that was the hardest thing I've ever felt. I still cry at the thought of her. I'm back at school, but my will power is gone.

Just recently these fires have just been making us all miserable and I was scared for my life and my family when it kept coming closer and would not stop. Thankfully the winds changed direction the last minute and lead the fire elsewhere. The skies have been red and gray, the air quality is horrendous it smells like smoke and everyone is just .... blah!

I hope that next year brings something good.